Today my af came....... this is always such a heartbreaking day for me. But for some reason I feel especially down about it. Maybe it's because everyone around me is getting pregnant or having babies. But I just feel super down. My mind is always thinking that the next pregnancy test I take is going to be positive but I just stopped taking them because a little piece of me dies every time I see a negative. I just want to have a baby so bad. I feel bad for all you guys out there who have had to deal with this for years. I don't know if I could handle that. Just a little bit of a rough day. I talk about it with friends and family but none of them truly understand how I feel.

Feeling super emotional and wanted to turn somewhere I knew people would understand.