2 year anniversary

We met two years ago tomorrow. In four months it will be two years of ttc. In six months it will be two years since our one and only miscarriage. I'm tired. We both know theres an infertility issue at stake. Neither one of us wants to bother with a doctor. We don't even have sex anymore with bothering with ttc. I'm just so tired of crying. I think this is the end its been a long hard road.