antidepressants & ttc

Carla • 43 years old, 1 late loss + 4 Mc = 5 years of sadness. Miracle baby May 5, 2018 ❤️
Hi everyone,
We've been going at this ttc journey for 4 years. I've been through 1 late loss, 3 mc with my own eggs, and just recently miscarried a donor egg.
I've taken it really hard. I've lost all hope. We still have eggs in the freezer, but I don't even care anymore. I've been so depressed and not sleeping well that I caught a bad flu (I work with kids) & now I'm home bedridden. This has now delayed my next cycle even more.
I go to therapy once a week, and it helps, but I feel like I'm drowning in sadness. My husband doesn't want to talk about any of it anymore. I love my job, but I can't work when I'm so sick, and I've taken a lot of time off over the years bc of the miscarriages.
Is it time to start thinking about medication to get me back to my old self, before all this? Can you take antidepressants while ttc? Anyone have any experience with this?