Agnostic trying to find Jesus again.

J. • Proud American 🇺🇸❤️
I was raised as a Christian & then turned away from it when I turned 19 because I lost faith in it & doubted if Jesus really was the son of God. I'm 21 now & ive been very unhappy since I turned away from God. I dont have that glorious feeling of hope anymore. 
Every since Easter, I've had this odd feeling that I have been heading in the wrong direction. It's as if my instincts have been telling me to go back the other way. I prayed for the first time in years last night & I felt very relieved. But I feel like Jesus wont listen to me anymore because I turned away from him & because I have been struggling with faith & doubt.
I really want to gain my faith back that I lost & I want a relationship with Jesus again, does anyone have any good helpful advice for me?