Need help/ advise..

A text that I sent not to long ago about how I feel concluded of me saying 

"I'm tired of being treated like trash and having to deal with it for the sake of our child or until he walks out. I am tired of having to hear him play his game day in and day out, but if I say me or the game he leaves. I am tired of feeling like I am the only parents that gives a shit about this baby or my own health. I am tired of being under someone's control 24/7. I am tired of having to do everything on my own. I am tired of having to lash out for someone to see that something is going wrong (even when I'm told them prior to me lashing out). I am tired of feeling like absolute shit all the time. I am tired of having to beg for proper love according to what I need. I'm tired of feeling like I mean nothing to nobody. I'm tired of feeling like a joke. I'm tired of being laughed at." 

Sorry for some of the language! It was to a pretty close friend of mine! I don't know what to do anymore. I went to my nutritionist today and they told me that according to the last time I was in there I lost 4 pounds and if I lose anymore I could miscarry.

I really don't know what to do anymore, I don't know how much more I can take! I need help!