We didn't realise how ready we were for a baby till it was in our face and happening. I was so scared about telling him, but when I did, he was over the moon!! That made me so happy. He was so perfect! Always checking on me, making sure I was eating and taking my prenatals, drinking plenty of water etc etc. then the bad news came. I had a MC at 7weeks.. 2 days before our first US. I was a wreck. But he continued to be the supporting BF that he is. Tried to be strong for me. I got drunk the following weekend (stupid! Do not recommend after a MC!) I had a shower when we got home and we both sat in our tiny shower on the ground and just let it all out! We were there for about 1/2 an hour before we got out. The next day he went back to trying to be strong for me. A week later we went for an US to make sure everything had cleared. And as we were walking back to the car, is when it really hit him. I could see it in his eyes. 

I was so surprised when it was him that brought up trying again before me. I want a baby so bad but didn't want to bring it up. So it's been 4weeks to the day since I lost our baby and I want more than anything for AF not to show! But if she does, at least I can start tracking properly. Baby dust to all ✨✨✨✨✨