Lately I feel really unattracted to SO.. he has a drinking problem and we constantly fight. He can never keep a job because he runs his mouth, so he's been pressuring me to get a job aside from SAHM. I agreed for part time, but only if I can actually rely on him to be sober to watch our son and new puppy. He wants to start his own business.. I was supportive at first. He bought $1000s of dollars worth of equipment from borrowed money. He told me he had all these jobs lined up. Well that's a lie. He said I'm selfish that I don't want to work so he can follow his dream? I never said I wouldn't, I actually got a job and start next week but haven't told him cuz I can't even stand talking about "money". He wastes money gambling, and is careless, goes to bars, spends spends spends.. I never see his money unless I literally take it from his wallet. Currently I have $500 to my name from saving and he thinks if I work, that my little income will support us. He is delusional. He makes me so angry. I take care of baby 24:7 and I have endometriosis so I feel sick, and tired majority of the time, yet I have to work cuz he can't keep a job/ be responsible. I thought about leaving him several times, but I do love him and don't want to take him away from my baby. End rant.😔