Struggling to love myself

So I see a lot of people here aiming to LOSE weight... I'm scared sharing but i'm here to feel ok about gaining it. I suffer from two eating disorders (anorexia and selective eating disorder) and I'm finally a healthy weight after a really tough battle last year. I was 72 pounds at my lowest. 
I'm currently a healthy 103 pounds (healthy because I'm only 4'11) and really struggling to love myself... I sit for hours rubbing places on my body to make sure I can feel bone. 
I'm hoping this post is ok... I mean we're all here to get to a healthy weight, right?