Does anyone suffer chronic depression?

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It would be so nice to not feel alone. I keep dealing with...issues that I just simply wish could and would go away. My birthday is June 21 and I will be 19. I honestly cannot remember the last time I was happy. I have been ... in an unhealthy mental state for as long as I can remember. It's gotten so awful that I just think of suicide. I am not crazy. I actually tried getting help. Nothing makes me feel better. I really just need help. Advice. Something. I feel alone. I need real friends. Not fakes. I don't want sympathy. I don't want attention. I simply want help. I want happiness. I want strong women who are not afraid to tell me their story and how they overcame their depression. I just...I am not crazy.