In complete denial

Heather
We just found out definitively in Friday that we lost our baby. Our doctor was not positive about anything from the very first u/s at 6+3 when there was only a sac. At 7+4 there was g sac, yolk sac and fetal pole measuring 6+3 and she said it wasn't viable but to come back. At 8+5 the fetal pole had disappeared. I never really had any symptoms, but I'm having a hard time believing that this is it - like maybe she made a mistake, or the baby is hiding, or she is terrible at reading ultrasounds, or SOMETHING. I can't bring myself to make a decision about a D&C or misoprostol or natural because I don't want to believe her. I know my husband thinks I'm crazy and I probably am, just prolonging the inevitable. Is anyone else going through this? We have been trying for so long and told we'd never have a child without an egg donor and we conceive naturally which was a miracle. I guess I'm hoping for another one. Help.