He can do SO much better...

I think I'm liking my best guy friend. He's Christian, hard-working, family-oriented, has all the same morals and values I do, and likes a lot of the same things I do as well. Sounds totally perfect right? Kinda. He's an amazing guy. As in the kind of guy who could have ANY GIRL he wants, as long as she's single. Like there is no way a girl couldn't not want him. No he's not perfect, but if he wanted someone like the governor's daughter, he could have her. (I'm not even sure the governor of my state has a daughter, but y'all get it). Anyway, I've been through absolute HELL with relationships in the past year. Lied to, humiliated, boundaries pushed (no sex, but it got close), possibly cheated on, you name it. He knows some of what happened, but not all. It has had a negative effect on me, I'm not the same. I just don't want him to leave once he knows everything and it's not like I can hide it from him. He asked me out last year when I was already in a relationship (absolute HELL part 2, I was talking to a guy before but never made it past talking) and to some that may have been the wrong time, but he couldn't have asked at a more convenient time. He could have been my way out, so I wouldn't be as hurt as I am. But NOPE, I had to be stupid. But I also wonder if asking me out was a joke, even tho he's not that type. Idk if I'm really what he wants. He don't date girls who have been through what I have. He Snapchats me almost every day and I think he does that so he can see me. He always asks about my job and my family. But he was raised VERY well, and it is his nature to do that. I kinda hope he likes me, but I just feel like I'd be too much for him to deal with, and as a result of that, I would not be enough to be with him in a relationship. I'm not trying to date him right now, I just don't know what to do. I'm really surprised he stuck around as long as he did. Every time a guy broke my heart, he Snapchats me, totally unaware I'm hurt or that I was ever talking to anyone. EVERY. TIME. He's got a heart of gold and I don't want to hurt him again. He really can do SO much better than me, trust me. He's on vacation right now, coming home in the coming week and I am honest to God ready to see him.