IM TIRED OF BEING BIG!

Hi, I'm jamiya. In 2015, I was 186 (first picture) I lost hope in ever being smaller than my friends (oh how I wish I could go slap myself in the face in the past) and ate my way through 2 years. I am currently 251. In 2 years I gained 65 pounds to my name face and body, I AM SICK OF IT. I never used to look like my weight until now I see videos of me on other people's phones and I am disgusted by who I see. It's quite ridiculous because I love who I am on the inside but HATE who I am on the outside, it's time for me to get real, I AM OBESE FOR MY AGE. I LOVE BEING BEAUTIFULLY BIG BUT I AM UNHEALTHY. I know this seems like self bashing but it's exactly what I need, so if you ladies could pump me up, leave me one exercise a piece, however many reps you want and I will gladly attempt to complete them all before this Sunday!!!!