Im beginning to hate my parents. LONG

When i was 15 we went from living in a nice brick house to a broken down farm house. My father put a lot of hard work into the house trying to fix it up. He wouldnt let me get anything or go anywhere unless i got a job. I started working in the fields with the migrant workers when i was 15. He let me go and do anythinf i wanted as long as i got a job. Him and my mom started fighting and he blamed everything on me. He said i was driving them apart. Our fights have gotten so bad that he has pinned me down on the floor and strangled me. I moved out and ran away with my husband when i was 17 with a guy in the fields. I told them i was coming home to get my clothes and then im going to fl. I got married 6 months later. I broke my parents heart. Not only by running away but my family is very religious. no pants. No makeup, jewelry, cutting hair. I broke their hearts by backsliding. Once i moved out my manipulative father stopped working. They shut off the lights...everything. They were cooking outside on a fire and boiling their bath water on the fire as well. My father some how convince my mother that living like cave people was OKAY. And they bragged about it! They didn't finish fixing the house. Actually it was starting to fall apart. Their grass had gotten so high that you would have to mow it with a tractor(because its thick). They lived like that for 3 years. Then i decided to buy the house from them last year(in payments) for $10,000. Its worth more but im their daughter. While i was pregnant and living in fl i called them every other day. They seemed always too busy to talk to me and i never got the support i needed emotionally. My father actually screamed at me to never call them again...(when i got onto them for spending my car insurance money. .that they were suppose to pay for me)we have fixed the house up quite a but and i am very proud of my husband! And very thankful to gave him! It just bothers me how my mother can visit all of her other grandchildren but never show up to see my daughter. They dont seem interested in her at all! They actually REJECTED me when i asked if they could babysit her for one day. They said that they done had their kids and they dont want anymore. I don't know what their problem is...they babysit my sisters two kids for like a week at a time. I barely call them anymore. We only speak once a month when they come by for the rent. If i try calling they ignore my call. Then i message them...they look at the message and doesnt reply back. They CLAIM they love me but they dont act like it. I just dont trust them anymore, they are completely different people then they used to be. Ive asked for a contract for buying the house...they refuse to draw up a contract. They say "what? You dont trust me?" i dont want to say that i dont trust them but i know that i gave them over $600 for insurance money and they spent it on who knows what!! And then yelled and screamed at me for getting mad!!! My dad blames me for EVERYTHING that goes wrong in his life and shoves his opinions down my throat. I am really starting to HATE them. And i just really disappointed in myself.

Anybody else have a bad relationship with their parents? ?