on the urge of breaking up & my man still does shit to piss me off ...

Ok so since having kids, it seems I have to 'ask' my partner permission to leave my house without the kids, and it's very rarely he's 'not too tired' to do so. But he on the other hand, he's always, always tired too tired to deal with me and the kids once his home, but now today after work he came home extra late, DRUNK, and with a group of work mates and still drinking now. Mind you it's a WEDNESDAY! N has just made it clear that this weekend I can't make plans because he is heading out clubbing (like the last 2 weekends) with his mates because it's one of the guys bdays, although that's the excuse he has to be drinking tonight too. Our relationship has been soo rocky and I'm on the urge of kicking his ass out & he just doesn't seem to try and make an effort instead he does more dumb shit he knows would piss me off, but does them anyway! So basically, my life is like a single mothers life except I have my baby daddy who's here but not here if you get the drift! 😭😭