Just typing my feelings.

My boyfriend of 3 years cheated on me a couple months ago. I found out a week after he did and he came completely clean, told her he would never talk to her again blah blah. We broke up for a month now we are slowly trying again. But I can't unsee it. I'm trying so hard to be strong but all I can think about is her and what he's done for her. We were together for 3 years and he never got me flowers. When we were in high school he would buy me those $1 roses for Valentine's day. He bought her a bouquet of roses. I want to ask her how it felt to be someone that's wanted just for fun but never truly wanted, never thought about or held hands in public. But then what's it like to be there girlfriend never good enough. Who's had but not wanted. And I can't go to him because then he just gets upset that I'm upset.