On the 4th of july, I left my fiance. Things got heated. He was in a angry mood due to being stressed because of us being broke, lack of sleep, and hungry. I want to help him calm down but when I try my best he always turns it on me and makes it into a a argument. I did my best to avoid confrontation. But he kept picking and picking at me for a argument. Saying things he knows will make me upset/angry. Lately, I've been on edge. Kept telling myself one more time he acts crazy I'm leaving. He's abusive..verbally and physically. Finally when I got angry I just decided to go. I don't want to fight in front of our baby. It's not good for her. I'm so tired of fighting with him I really am. I do my best to avoid fights cause I'm honestly scared of him hurting me again. He said really fucked up things.. threatened to call the cops on me if I left with our baby (even though everyone knows he's incapable of watching her for no more than a few hours without going crazy angry on me for watching her, and he's violent), said he was going to take my name off the lease, said he was selling my engagement ring... he made fun of my weight said everytime he hit me choked me thrown me into walls thrown things at me, how it wasn't even bad and I'm a pussy for complaining about the abuse, accusing me of stealing his friends SD card out his phone, accusing me of breaking his game, the list goes on.

I feel like people expect me to go back. He keeps asking his mom when I'm coming back and me and his mom have a close relationship. .she says I need to talk to him and go back in a couple of days when things cool down. We have done this multiple times.

He isn't going to change. I'm scared to go home. Every time I go back home from being gone he's angry at me for leaving and violent... he locked me out my own house... he has no way to get to work without me cause we share a vehicle and my cat is there and a majority of the things in our apartment is technically mine. Only stuff that's his is guitars, game cards and clothes. I'm at my mom's house right now. I'm safe here cause he doesn't know the address. I don't know what to do. I hate him but I love him and want to make sure he's doing okay without me there. I don't know what to do. I'm scared. This is what's best for my babygirl. He's too unstable to be a father.. I want my daughter to he surrounded by love and happiness. I don't want her to watch me get beat and yelled at. I'm just so lost and don't know what to do.