1 day til Af BFN

Brittany
I've been testing all week which I don't normally do. My nipples hurt, my back hurts, I've been nauseous. Everyday BFN. Today my husband's family is having a party. He announced we were pregnant in March before the miscarriage, and never told anyone what happened. I was hoping for a bfp this morning so it would be easier to tell people but that didn't happen. I've thought about just getting drunk at the party so people won't upset me. I know I didn't get a BFP with my angel baby until I was like 5 days late so I don't want to get drunk just in case. But then I think maybe I just want to be pregnant so bad I'm making myself think I am. Anyone else felt like this?