Okay.. long story but I'm gonna cut a lot of pieces out because most of it is bs. I'll call the two men D and V to cover names.

I met d(my sons father) back in June 2014. We started talking later that month and he had heard so many rumors about how I had been with lots of guys and wasn't with any of them long. He told me he wasn't going to date me because of that. I got mad that he was telling everyone we were only friends for months when clearly we weren't, and stopped talking to him late October that year. I met V in early November. Very sweet man and knew my close friend from hs and had boasted about how much of a romantic he is but has never stayed with anyone steadily. I took that as a challenge. We started talking in November and around late December (3 days before xmas) I was hit by a car in the parking lot of our car meet. V took me to the ER they bandaged me and sent me home told me not to sleep and to have someone care for me. My dad was there to pick me up and V decided to tell him it was ok if I stayed at his place so he could care for me. Ohhhh man.. laid me down to rest, drew me a bath when I woke up in the middle of the night lit candles and put on r&b; music.. I thought he was trying to have sex but that wasn't the case. He was honestly taking care of me (has RN license) and oh boy was I falling in love fast. He cared for me the whole four days I didn't leave (was told not to drive for 4-5 days) he called out of work as did I. Dungeon love..

anyways. D heard I was hit by a car and called me the fourth day I was there asking how I was doing and was worried about me and heard I got in the accident by a friend. He sounded so sincere and started saying he wanted to try things again with me and was sorry he believed the rumors and I was actually loyal to him. I should have hung up then...

two weeks later, I end up getting back with D. V was upset because I told him how he had treated me and he said he would never treat me like that (and he was so right)!

Skip to three years later... after being with D for three long years, being mentally broken down, abused deteriorating my life never could have friends never could talk to anybody - he had trapped me. I lived with him and his parents the whole time. I found out numerous times in those years that he was cheating on me when he said he would go out to car shows and leave me at home or if I was working he would tell me he's going to his friends late.. I found out April 2016 I was pregnant. He was enraged and told me it wasn't his. I cried so hard I was so scared I hid my pregnancy from his and my family for months. He had always accused me of cheating on him with V he told me all the time that he knew I was in love with him and got in fights a lot over it. Later on he had calmed down knows I never cheated on him he said he wouldn't leave me and we had to move to Colorado (his birthplace). I told him I wanted to stay here because I don't want to leave my family. He hated that. He hated my family also.. anyways. I stayed inside quit my job at 6 mo. Pregnant and didn't talk to anybody. which drove me into a depression to where I didn't even want outside contact. Had our baby 11/30/16 Enzo<3 D had never helped me take care of our son only worked and played video games left me to do the usual housewife/mother chores. Was always getting into fights for no reason at all. I cried so much for so many years.

finally got out of the dead end relationship he had beat me to the point of me running out of the house to call for help. (He broke my phone accusing me of cheating) was Arrested etc. Left march of this year moved in with my parents and have had minimal contact. He is fighting for full custody which won't happen.

I contacted V again about a few weeks ago, telling him I missed him and had always thought about him over these years. He is very upset still that I let myself stay in an abusing relationship and has told me he needs to think about if he wants to be with me again but I know I made a mistake of going back with D. Besides having my son which is the best thing that's happened to me I this, I wish I never talked to him again.

I'm calling out for help because V tells me I have changed into this "skittish cat" and he wishes he could love me but won't ever forget that I left him for such a bad man and believes I will leave him again for someone who is going to abuse me again. I know now what to watch out for and I will never let myself go like I had done then. He won't believe me... and it breaks my heart. By the way, it doesn't bother him that I had a baby with D - he loves my son. Has been more of a father than D ever was.