Let's start with some back story... My boyfriend went through a phase of liking girls pics on insta. No big deal right? Besides the fact that they were ONLY the bikini pics or pics where they were not wearing a lot of clothes or clearly showing off ass/tits. While we were in a relationship. And they're all the "ideal" type of girl: skinny waist, flat tummy, round booty, perfect skin, thin thighs, no cellulite.

I understand that social media should not be so influential in relationships but this hurt me. I feel disrespected. I feel like I wasn't enough to keep his attention. I feel like I'm not good enough, or some kind of consolation prize to what he really wants. I'm slightly on the larger size, not fat but curvy and have always felt really insecure. And it hurts me that he's showing interest in the type of girl I'd always wished I was.

I just can't get over this and it makes me feel awful about myself. Am I crazy? Is it wrong of me to let this interfere with our relationship? I'm honestly just not sure what to do now... I understand guys look at other girls but I mean he can look at a photo with out giving her a like and publicly giving her his attention like that...

We are long distance and I just question whether he's quite as faithful as he claims, which could be a whole different story in itself. Our relationship is seriously rocky lately but despite everything he is my best friend and I don't even know how we could go about parting ways. I'm just so lost lately, not extremely happy at the moment but just keep hoping it might get better as I do struggle w mental illness as well.

Sorry about the length!! Any advice or LDR tips or opinions are all welcome.

Thanks in advance 💟