Mental state after abortion

I know abortion is a touchy subject but back in October of last year I was put in the situation where I thought it was the best route. It has really put a toll on me and I just can't seem to get past it, I keep wanting to get pregnant again and I don't even know why. I feel like it eating away at my soul. Has anyone else felt like this? What did you do to get past it? Is there anyway to get past it?