I stopped having sex for two years bc I was sick of friends with benefits situations and guy friends deciding they were gunna get too handsy and not hearing the word no. Then I started liking this guy and found myself being turned on again. I would fantasize about him and just wanted to know so bad what it would be like to be with him. So I finally got him and it was great at first. Now we are in a friends with benefits situation which is not what I wanted. And after a few months the different kinks he likes started to come out...and it's making me want to be celibate again. He likes anal and ass to mouth and tying me up and saying demeaning things and just wants me to be very submissive and I guess as a person with low self esteem it's just shitty to me cuz all I want is regular vaginal sex and all he wants is to put a leash on me and call me names