5th loss ❤

Had a d&c on Friday as I had a missed miscarriage our baby died at 9 weeks, I was 9 weeks 5days when I went for the scan and they found no heartbeat. This is hurting so bad we have tried and tried and tried and keeps happening. I can't figure out how we managed to have our beautiful 3 year old without any issues, the question WHY is constantly going through my head