Don't know what to call it, I don't understand

I'm in a long distance relationship where I drive just about 5 to 5.5hrs to see him. We're supposed to meet this Friday, but I'm tired of driving, I wouldn't mind, but the things he saying out the side of his neck, I'm refusing to go. Then, when I get there, I don't have a chance to rest, like tf...I drive straight through with barely any stops, unless I have to go to the bathroom. I like getting on the road to travel, I love it, but now, I don't want to go... I feel like he's so unappreciative. He makes me like the bad one, I can't do this anymore, I'm not ready, well don't want to take this trip. We met before my bday, but it was brief.