I just wish I could know what it feels like to be normal.

I'm a victim of child abuse which has left me with anxiety, depression, and PTSD. I don't have a job or my license at 22. I feel like a failure even though I do work hard and I'm intelligent. I haven't had anyone to teach me how to drive or anything, so I can't get a job. (I live in the middle of nowhere, so no car, no job because there are no jobs that close and no public transportation.) I just wish I could be a normal 22 year old. I try so hard, but get nowhere. I wish I at least knew what it is like to not have to deal with mental illnesses. Instead I'm sitting here crying at 4:30 in the morning wondering how my boyfriend could possibly love someone like me.