Gave money to drug addict

Autumn • UO💛

Hey so

I was in the hospital parking lot with my windows down, when a woman who looked like she definitely did drugs walked up to my car and started telling me about how she ran out of gas, showed me a scar where they took out her lung, and needed money.... she told me "if I see another white person today I'll lose it I'm so embarrassed", so I obviously felt guilty being privileged and I didn't know what to do.

I felt really bad, I had shopping bags in view, food and my wallet and purse sitting right out.... I was going to give her $5 but then she happened to see how much I had (she saw a few 20s) even though I was angling away. She tried to get $40 and I told her it was all the money I had so she still somehow swindled me out of TWENTY-FIVE dollars.

She had her hand in my window and I started getting scared she was going to grab me or my wallet so I just gave her the money. She told me I could hold onto her phone until she got the gas but then ran off.

I feel so incredibly bad and guilty. What if she dies off of drugs she will likely buy with it??? Normally I give homeless people food but idk what came over me, I literally couldn't help it and felt so scared she was going to try and rob me because she was reaching in my car. What do I do I feel so bad???