Does this happen to anyone else? I have pcos and I just get so upset when I see an ultrasound on social media or my friends announce.

I want to crawl in a hole and die. Sure, I've only been married a year but shouldn't have something happened by now?

I don't think a baby will complete me or him, I just feel like less of a woman maybe. I'm so scared it'll never happen and stress myself out incessantly... Then wonder if I was meant to have them at all bc I have lifelong dreams I would like to see come to fruition.

I hate to admit this but when I see a pregnant person, my default is to think 'oh man, her life is over' which I know is wrong.

A lot of my husband and I's mutual friends have been married shorter periods or just a couple months before us and are already pregnant :( I'm so discouraged and have lashed out at many of them /burned bridges. I often wonder what I did to make God so mad at me to keep me barren like this and let evil and good parents alike have kids.

How do I stop this chain of negativity from impacting every area of my life? Any insights appreciated. I have this tug of War going on inside me where I want kids, don't want kids. I'm a mess.