I am so tired, tired of crying myself to sleep every night, tired of waking up with the hope that I can pull through another day, tired of putting on a fake smile to hide the pain I'm feeling inside. Tired of smiling at children hoping one day I'll be able to call one my own. Tired of waiting for the day I get to do another test only to see that one line of lonelyness. I'm tired of people talking to me telling me how amazing it is to be a mom and how they weren't really living until they gave birth. I'm tired of getting pictures of them enjoying life with their children and tired ofreplying with a smiley how cute they look when the truth is that my eyes get filled with tears behind my phone for wanting that more than anything in this world. Help me, please help me. God help me through this.