Hello everyone! I'm 19 years old, and my parents started to get a divorce about 2 years ago. They have always had a toxic relationship and even as a child I always told them to divorce each other. throughout my childhood, I have seen domestic abuse, intense violence, I've been disowned by my father, I have been emotionally abused by both my parents and I have seen my mother in intensive care for months due to attempted murder. That was when they finally decided to divorce and I thought things would get better but unfortunately, I became a pawn in your parents' game. They both emotionally abuse me and my siblings to get us to favour them. I'm always stuck in between the 2 of them and I have gotten to the point where I am so depressed but cannot speak to either of them, they just tell me that they are feeling worse than me, I cannot even speak to my siblings or anyone else for that matter. I am slowly falling into deep deep depression, I have almost isolated myself from all my friends, I cannot do my school work and I sleep 15 hours a day. honestly I thought the worst was over but everyday I feel worse and worse and I am truly beginning to feel lonely. I forgot how to socialise and I hate going home because that environment is just so toxic. I don't know what to do. people say things will get better but I don't know anymore, I really don't. sorry for the rambling