I'm gonna be honest here

I know I'm not an attractive person, my face is just weird, and I look extremely intimidating. I know that I'm not attractive because I overheard a group of people (all genders) talking about how unattractive i am and other girls like taking pictures with me when they are feeling unattractive to boost themselves. I have always known that I have an intimidating air to me, but honestly it never really bothered me much. I began to become really funny to compensate for my looks, subconsciously and it doesn't really bother me knowing that it will be harder for me to find a partner. None of these things actually really, truly bother me because almost everyone who knows me really really loves my personality, most people gravitate towards me and always ask for my advice. Even people I don't know really like me just from word of mouth. I think the only thing that does bother me is the fact that people talk about how unattractive I am behind my back, but want to be around me all the time. Lately it makes me feel used and almost as if people like me because they feel sorry for me and want ti be around me because they feel better about their own looks. I am not a very self conscious person and I never really worried about what people said about me, but lately it's just something that's been on my mind. I'm starting to notice things I never did, and I think I am actually feeling hurt... I don't know.