So...I turn 30 in about a month and a half, but I'm in the second romantic relationship of my life.

From ages 18-28 I was with one guy. I thought it would last forever. I was head over heels totally completely Disney Princess style in love. Then he dumped me for a younger woman (we had an 18 year age gap), but when she chucked him I took him back (yes, THAT much in love). Two years after this he ignores me for 3 months so I ended it. I loved being single and the rose tinted glasses came off and I saw my now ex for the asshole he was (there was some light emotional abuse in the relationship, but I was too smitten to notice).

Now I've met someone else after a year of being happily single. We're only a month into the relationship, so I've not caught feels yet. We get along quite well though.

I've recently been absolutely desperate to see my ex again (there has been no contact since he began ignoring me). I miss what we had, I miss him so much.

I just wanted to ask those of you with more than 2 partners under their belt if this is normal. Also, more importantly, does it go away?!? I almost hate and love the guy at the same time!