When my daughter was a newborn I was totally in love with her up until she was about 4 weeks old and then postpartum depression set in. I started to just go through the motions of taking care of a baby but always feeling like I wanted my old life back. Today she's 8 months old and although I love her and would never abandon her I feel like I'm no good at being a mother. My Husband is amazing at taking care of her. I change the diapers and he entertains her all day I just breastfeed her and then pass her back to him. When I hold her I don't feel any connection and I feel like I rather be in bed because I'm severely depressed. I'm on Zoloft for anxiety and depression and although my depression is getting better my feelings towards her are the same. I feel like such a horrible mother and like I can't connect with my daughter. She's so fussy when she's around me but an angel with everyone else.