scared to go to church

I know everyone isn't religious but I just need advice. I've been want to go to church for maybe the past 4 Sundays but I'm scared. I haven't been in a while then I had a baby out of wedlock, I'm only 19. Before all of this I didn't like the church people (hopefully that's not mean to say) they're SO judgmental. & that was for no reason but now they have a reason to judge. I miss the service but honestly don't have time for the drama. I want to find a new church but I'm afraid to just invite myself into someone's church. I know it's like this is stupid because I'm keeping myself from praising God but my anxiety is already so bad. I don't want to go & have a panic attack or something stupid 🤦🏻‍♀️