I'm not good enough

It seems that whatever I would like to eat or want to cook in the kitchen my husband doesn't want. He won't eat what I make unless it's something he really wants to eat now. Before baby was here we would talk about our plans after baby and what we would do and he'd always tell me things will be okay and that we will work through it. Fast forward baby is now here, I'm 6 weeks post partum and my husband is talking to me less. He would just tell me to stop being dumb and emotional. He doesn't tell me things will be okay anymore. He doesn't say much anymore except that I can talk again when I start working and making money. He has a great job already and can support the both of us but I know our life can be so much better if I work too. I am a SAHM because we don't have family to babysit and we both agreed it's not worth it to pay $1000/month for babysitting. Because of all this I feel he doesn't feel his life is on par with his parents or brother since they all own nice cars and we don't have one. I always knew him to not be a materialistic person but now he's showing me that he is. I feel he almost regrets having baby because his lifestyle has changed even though he said we were ready to start a family. I am torn because there's just the three of us, I want to spend time with my new baby but if I don't find a job soon then I feel my husband will continue to distance himself and become unhappy with our life. I don't want to but I will start looking for a night job even if it's a few hours so that I can make some money to help out or else I will feel useless. It's hard for me to trust my husband to babysit also because he would always put baby to sleep and then put a pillow on her side, covering half of her. He says he does this so that if baby is squirming then she'll feel the weight of the pillow to hold her down so that she stays sleeping longer...then he can nap or game. I'm not okay with that. I keep scolding him saying to never put a pillow on top of our baby or any baby. That is UNSAFE! Like what is my husband doing right now, sleeping on the couch with baby sleeping on a pillow on his lap and he doesn't even have his hands around her. I either really paranoid or he's being a really irresponsible parent. I know he loves our baby but his parenting skills are a negative though he claims he's babysit more than me in his life time. I am not feeling okay anymore. Is there an anonymous service that I can talk to online or something?? I am stressed and not emotionally happy with where we are in this relationship. He makes me feel like I'm not good enough because we don't have what his family has since he's the only one working. I have talked to him about it but it's not going anywhere. :(