How am I supposed to know how to breathe when I can't stop crying. How do I control my anger when I end up pressing scissor blades to my skin hoping they were more sharp because Because I let everyone hurt me so bad and I can barely hurt my fucking self. And I just wish I could so I can have the power over my own pain. How do people deal with getting their heart broken because I wish I never fucking slept with him, or let him touch me, or kiss me, or say he loved me and let him lie to my fucking face. I wish I never let him make me feel beautiful or say he liked my hair natural because now I want to rip every fucking curl out of my head. I wish I wouldn't have snuck to his house on New Years and let him take my virginity the first night we met. I wish I could block his number, and delete our pictures. I wish he wasn't my best friend, I wish he wasn't the only person I had. Because all I have is myself and I hate myself for allowing him to hurt me so bad. So how do I learn to breathe again.