So, this is something that's been eating me up. Especially since this first year was a trigger. But my boss at work sexually assaulted me a year ago. I liked him for a while one day while at work we got a little too much and next thing I know is I'm forced on my knees, he pulls out his dick and he told me to "suck it. Please." I said no but he then pushed himself closer to me and I did it. I said "please let me know when you're about to cum..." (which he didn't.) and we "joked" about it because like I said I liked him. The other 3/4 times I gave him oral sex was my own free will. But the first time was forced and it's been fucking with me because of this relapse. He's my boss at work and I'm quitting because I can't deal with this anxiety and depression. I leave this Friday and I was waiting until I started college again and was going to use the "safe to say" line we have at work. I'm just really scared. Hes going to put together two and two and it's going to go down hill and I'm really honestly scared. I've been triggers recently so bad. I can't let my best friend (who's a guy) and my boyfriend barely even touch me. I'm also a survivor of child molestation, and I think my depression along with my anxiety is back 10 fold. I'm going to go seek professional help when I'm away for college because it's free and itll help me get more resources but idk. Part of me feels like I'm in the wrong for reporting him... he could lose his job.