frustrated

I am 32 year old, I have been trying to convince since 2010 with my ex-husband. Do too us not conceiving he left me and end up getting multiple woman pregnant you could imagine how I felt. I felt as though I was the one with the problem. I went to the doctor and was told that he does not she any sign of not being able to conceive. I am currently engaged to my boyfriend of three years. Since last year we have decide to try and conceive. We have not had no such luck. He went to the doctor to get a check up and everything was fine and I also went back and was told the same thing. Doctor told me to look into a fertility doctor. I am truly scared of go. I have been keeping track of ovulation for the last five months this but still no luck. This is very frustrating. Everyone around us has kids. And it just seems like they always want us to be the godparents. I just want a child of my own. To go or not to look into a fertility doctor?