**This post is for people who enjoy exploring sexual fantasies with their SO, who aren't afraid of trying something different, and who are open and understanding to peoples needs*** 

My husband and I have been together going on 15 years. Married 9. We've had our share of highs and extreme lows. He's in the military and has gone on 3 deployments. He hasn't left me since 2010 thankfully so we've been able to live a semi normal life. To the point ☝️ 

He is obsessed with my body, he loves my curves even my little tummy I can't ever seem to get rid of. I think it's cute. For a long time he enjoys taking pictures of me in little outfits, something as simple as a thong with a pair of heels, or as extreme as a butt plug...yes a butt plug. I won't do anything that involves the back door so I have let him use the weird glass contraption that really isn't all that bad. Anyhow...we have what I think to be a normal sex life, 3-4 times a week, maybe more if he goes away on business. He likes to take videos of me going down on him, putting oil on my butt and make me jiggle it a little, then we have sex. He says it helps him with his stress and PTSD, it gives him something to look forward to after a long and sometimes shitty day at the office, and that he just loves me and has fun. Again to the point ☝️...

It went from a monthly thing to a weekly thing, sometimes I don't even want to have sex because I'm just to damn tired to get all dressed up, so I help him. I worry that he can't get off unless I'm talking dirty, taking pictures or getting into a slutty outfit. So now I get annoyed and extremely stressed out when he sends me a message in the afternoon saying "He can't wait to get home and destroy me"...uuuuugh lol 

Am I over thinking this? Should I be flattered? Should I love that he would rather see me and use my photos as apposed to watching porn, he'd rather make it with me? Or should I be worried? I don't want to be annoyed tonight when he comes home with excitement, this man struggles with anxiety and depression and really depends on me to lift him up sometimes. The war was hard on him, and he struggles with his childhood past till this day. I guess what I'm saying as corny as it may be, sometimes I just want to be with him, naked and doing the love thing, i understand we have been together for a long time, we are only 31 years old, and we have to do things to keep it fun and interesting but I too struggle with anxiety and need to know if I'm over thinking this?

Thanks y'all! Love my flow girls!💗🌺✌🏼