Ending my (very short) journey of TTC

I have gone through two miscarriages in less than 6 mo. My last ob was great and recommended an HSG since my tubes are clamped and I shouldn't be able to get pregnant anyways. We were not trying, obviously but after hearing my husband say how much he wanted the bean I assumed we would be moving forward and ttc.

We were talking last night and he said he wants me to have the HSG done, but wants to wait until we have a house to move past that point.

I'm disappointed and sad. I don't know why I got my hopes up. I knew he didn't want kids and was fine with that for the reasons stated above, but finding out I was pregnant kind of changed my mind.

I'm no spring chicken and did the math in my head and it doesn't even seem worth it. By the time we get around to ttc, get a reversal done, possibly have to go through <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a>, etc., I will be well in my 40's and i worry about the increased risk to the fetus.

I keep telling myself I didn't want more kids anyways (I have one son), but my broken heart says something else.

Either way I'm going in next week to discuss birth control options with my doctor.