my ex was the sweetest most caring guy i ever met. i was going through some things like trust issues yet he stuck by my side and tried to help me work through them. he treated me like a princess however i unintentionally treated him like shit. i let my trust issues and anxious thoughts get to me and instead of trusting him, i snooped and discovered he cared about me much more than i ever thought and just how amazing he was and was saying amazing things about me behind my back (which says a lot)

when he found out abt the snooping, he knew i had trust issues so he decided that if he asked me and i confessed, he would forgive me because he knew abt them and would try to help me work through them and teach me to trust again. however i was terrified to confess and i didn't, and he broke it off. he broke it off because he wanted a trusting relationship and thought i was a bad person and that i never wanted him but only a relationship and the title of a relationship and i made him absolutely miserable. i was hurt and hurt people hurt people and i didn't want him to get hurt because i really care abt him i just couldn't think.

he is 100% moved on and over me, and he is happier now. he doesn't hate me or is mad at me however. i asked him if he would give me another chance when i got my things together and

he said "for now we are done. we can go out in august if we are both still single but if we aren't then we know it's not meant to be. if we are still single and available we can go out and we can go from there and see if it was a good decision or not if we are still single."

my questions are:

1. do u think i deserve a second chance? (personally i think no so i consider myself lucky)

2. how do i make him see me as amazing as he saw me before? what can i do to erase his negative opinion of me and let him see me as he did before?

3. where should i take him on the date and how can i show him i changed?