I'm just honestly feeling so depressed and so hurt. I don't know why I do this to myself but at night I just so depressed and my boyfriend won't even talk to me long enough. He gets tired and tries to leave the call (we call cause we don't live together yet) and he just leaves the phone and I get even more upset when he does and when he hears that I'm upset he just completely leaves like he gets mad and would be like "okay then" and just leaves. He tries to Come back the next morning saying he's sorry and saying he loves me but that's not good enough!! Just because you lie someone doesn't mean you can't show it or appreciate them! And if I ever dare say he cares about his friend more than me he gets really mad! I can't help it because whenever his friend calls he hangs up with me and talks to him and plays games with him. He even left me a day his friend came down here and my boyfriend was already hanging out with me. I'm just so tired of feeling neglected and unloved. I try to tell him but he doesn't even stay long enough to actually have even a small conversation. I feel so depressed and so unloved and hurt.. I am just so hurt right now to the point that my stomach hurts from crying my face burns and I feel dead inside. And he supposedly says he's coming down to see me Wednesday and yeah things are much better when together but that doesn't mean he can't make an effort. Or an hour of just talking to me.

I get it. Work makes you tired.. but I barely get to hear from him at all and when I do I just feel so hurt already and he doesn't want to hear it

He helps when I feel depressed and stressed.. at least before

I don't even know what to do anymore

I'm not going to leave him because I love him so much. But this always happens when I don't get to see him

And I'm hoping that if we do get to live together then all of this will end..

I just wish things would be okay now