Adding anonymously because this is extremely touchy for me to talk about.

I just feel like its never going to happen for me. And no matter how much I want it I can't picture myself being lucky enough to have a healthy pregnancy and then give birth to a healthy baby. I hate the fact that people can accidently get pregnant while others have to try for years and years. Or when we finally get pregnant our baby is taken right back. I'm beyond frustrated and depressed and I can't do it anymore. I'm trying like hell to stop stressing because as soon as I did it last time I got pregnant. But after my miscarriage it's like I'm obsessed. I mean I do tons of stuff to keep my mind busy and it's like it's not even working. It took us nine months to conceive and then a month later our baby was gone. Now here we are two months after our baby went to heaven and still nothing.

I have to stop and just let it happen if it'll happen. But holy fuck I'm going absolutely crazy 😩