Feeling like a failure.

As of today my son is 2wks and EBF. He was born 7lb9oz and as of Monday he is 7lb11oz, this after going down to 7lbs after birth. His pediatrician was pleased.

It took a while to find the right hold to achieve a good latch each side, though one side is still a bit sensitive to start.

He has done well from the get go feeding 20-30mins one side every 1.5-2 hrs. The last few days he has been going about an hour and only feeding for 8-15 either side, preferring one side more than the other so offering both sides.

I have pumped a few times now, going from a full oz each side to .5oz to may be an oz total. I'm still trying to find the right time to pump between feedings.

I was wanting to EBF for at least a year and my hopes for that are quickly dwindling. I am drinking water all day, eating as healthy as I can...

I EBF my daughter for just over two months and had to start supplementing and ultimately stopped BF because she wasn't gaining enough weight. It hurt knowing I couldn't physically provide for her, but her health was more important.

I didn't have any kind of support with her, but I do now here and lactation consultants from the hospital (which I will be contacting tomorrow). But at the same time I feel like I have no where to turn for help.