Due date soon...

I lost my baby on Christmas this past year. Monday the 24th was my due date. How do other grieving mothers get through this day?? Any suggestions? I will add that I am a funeral director, but that does not ease the burden or pain in my heart.❤️ I got pregnant the first month off birth control. My Hcg went back to normal in less than 3 weeks when I got my period and the OK to try again. I am having SUCH a hard time trying to conceive again when it was so easy our first time. I'm just so frustrated😪💔 Much love! Thanks ladies XOXO