I had my third miscarriage a couple months ago. This one really hit me hard. My first two miscarriages were with my ex and to have a third miscarriage with my current boyfriend (soon to be fiancé) really hit hard. I worry that I may not be able to carry a child full-term.

Our best friend's just announced their pregnancy and shared a picture of their ultrasound. That broke me completely. I feel so horrible being upset but the last ultrasound I had was to confirm that there was no heartbeat from the fetus.

I just don't know how to cope with this depression. I feel like I cry every night over my lost babies and no one considers me a true mother because I don't have a child to hold. I will never get over the loss of my babies. I'm patiently waiting to have a rainbow baby but I don't want to rush into having a child. I'm still struggling so much right now.

How do you cope with others around you announcing their pregnancies? I'm happy for them but it just keeps me up in tears at night. It doesn't feel healthy and I'd like to have a stable mind before I consider trying again.