Bad arguement


So I am going through court system right now for getting my daughters biological fathers parental rights terminated. Long story short my husband and I are currently separated by countries. He will be here in August for a couple of weeks and we had the argument last night that until we can be together as a family in one place he does not want to try for children. I understand his reasoning but it hurt my heart a lot and I cried myself to sleep last night. He said he is willing to wear condoms but I am to get back on birth control. I really hate this and am I stupid to feel disappointment about the situation or do I have a right to feel this way when he says we will make everything work and he repeats his vows to me "for better or for worse"? How would you ladies feel if you were in this same situation