Confused! Just....So......Confused

Stephanie

So while I am sure the answer to my question/issue has been addressed several times in the past, I am going to put it out there again since I'm not even sure what to look up LOL!! On June 16th I started the medication process because of a missed miscarriage. Worst weekend of my life; should of been the best as it was our one year wedding anniversary and Father's Day. We were over the moon excited to finally, (after 10 months of trying) be pregnant. We went to our first appointment only to hear the worst which was our fetus had not grown past 5 weeks. The following week we went back for confirmation and we were given the option to do it in the comfort of our own home or schedule the d&c.; We chose to do it at home. Shockingly it was nothing that I prepared myself for whatsoever. No cramping or pain! A lot of bleeding ONLY when I would use the bathroom and wipe. Never fully went to the pad. The flowing Friday I returned to my OB for an ultrasound at which I learned everything passed and looked great! I went down to the lab to have my hcg done that very same day and it was at 74. That next Saturday (8 days later) hcg was at 6 and she opted not to have me go back a week later as it was far enough down. So (sorry for the long, drawn out story!!) tomorrow it is 5 weeks since the miscarriage and today AF was supposed to show her stupid, ugly face.....she did not. I poas and it was negative and I was super bummed but tried not to really let it get to me. Ovulation tests don't work for me so I track my ovulation via CM. Temping just sounds WAY too confusing!! Here's the thing.....since I stopped bleeding from the MC (about 9 days total with the last 3-4 only being very light spotting), my CM has been soooooo outta whack that my head is spinning from confusion. One day it is ewcm, the next it's creamy, then a day of watery oh and more ewcm. Typically before AF I dry up......no not now. I cannot be the only one confused by their cycle after a miscarriage! So my question is, aside from the obvious of who else (if anyone) has been through this, or has anyone else had such an easy going miscarriage and their cycles been completely outta whack? And when or should I test again? Honestly, I have never wanted AF to show her ugly face as bad as I do now. I just want to start this process over again because sadly, I feel like my hopes of getting pregnant before my first period are gone out the window.

Sorry about my whole life story just about. Thanks for any input😊

Edit to this post. This site is horrible for lack of commenting. Pretty sure we are all here to talk, vent, get advice! No more posting for me, just tracking! Thanks to those who at least took the time to read it✌️