is this a positive??? or evap line??

So I got a really really faint line that I thought was a false positive a week ago and then nothing since then.... I peed right on the stick both times and you're not supposed to do that so I don't know if I messed it up somehow but this line is much more visible and im afraid to believe it because so many negatives but I'm going crazy right now.... I just did another one and it is negative...
Help!!