Vent.. everyone is in labor but ME😩

I'm over here having complications and the doctors told me I wouldn't make it to 33 weeks... well we are on we 36+4 and still no baby. DONT GET me wrong... I am beyond thankful that he has been cooking this long BUT when you have 4 different doctors appointments WEEKLY and have been for 5 weeks... Shit gets old.... Really fast considering I have 3 children already (7,4,18months)... I am running out of resources for child care so I can go to these 4 appointments all DIFFERENT days of the week! Not to mention what this is doing to me mentally. It's HORRIBLE. Every single day is a struggle to keep it together because I am SO tired of having some type of doctors appointment to attend that day. Then on top of that after each appointment I get the same news. "You look good, baby looks good, we'll see you in a few days." Again, I am beyond thankful my son and I are beating all odds and doing great but at what point are these doctors going to see enough is enough. I have literally had to go on Zoloft because of the metal anguish this has caused. Then I look at these apps and see so many people going in to labor. I am just bummed and wish the doctors could see I am barely hanging on. Although I want a healthy full term baby if I am not mentally there it's not going to do any of us any good to keep pushing induction off.

I am going to Material Fetal Specialist at 8am Friday morning and I am PRAYING they give me papers for induction because I honestly just can not handle this anymore. I will be 37 weeks on Monday.

And if you feel the need to tell me I'm being selfish... don't because I already feel this way. I am just a stay at home mother of 3 children, with not much help from her husband while being miserably pregnant with unexpected baby #4 that just turns out to the most complicated pregnancy ever!

So please cut me so slack.

And please don't say we should have been using protection if we didn't want another baby... I had Marina put in after my last and apparently God want me to have 4 kids because even with that in I am still pregnant. So it's no 99% effected in my case