I feel like a part of me is missing. I don't find joy in the things I used to, and I can hardly remember how I felt before I got pregnant. I've always wanted to be a mom, DH and I thought we were so lucky when we got pregnant our first month of trying.

I miss being pregnant. Losing our baby was devastating. It feels like my reason to live has been ripped from me, I still oddly feel like a mom. I feel like somethings missing and have even had dreams that my baby was crying. I dream about them a lot. I think it was a girl.

I feel like I'm just going through the motions. I want to feel alive again.