Gbs positive...

I just found out I'm GBS positive and I'm so upset. I'm worried about the baby, but even more I'm worried about labor.... we hired a doula and I wanted to go to the hospital as late as possible and try to avoid an epidural... now I will have to be not just in the hospital but in bed for my whole labor bc of the iv, and so all the money we paid the doula is wasted, and I will probably need the epidural much sooner (and since I'll already be strapped to a bed with an iv and a catheter, there's no reason not to have it). And it seems like this means I won't be able to nurse, which I had been hoping to do, so now I need to research formula. I know I should be grateful that my pregnancy is mostly going ok and that the baby will probably be fine... but I'm so upset that his birth will long and miserable and he won't be breastfed.

And, my parents are visiting for the weekend and coming any minute, and I don't want to tell them about this bc my mother is so judgmental and claims I was born after 1.5 hrs of labor with no pain and she already thinks I'm doing everything wrong. But they are going to see that I'm upset and I don't know what to tell them.